update 5-17-14

As many of you know I have been trying to start the process for death with dignity here in Washington , this has met with mixed emotions from others and questions about what I am thinking. This week has been difficult with more issues presenting themselves and my body not being able to compensate anymore. Adding to it the stress of dealing with cellphone company and needing a replacement handset that they have failed to get to me in 4 tries, and having dshs and medicaid tell me they want more tests and details before they will authorize referral to psychological Dr. or pain specialist which are both required for me to proceed in death with dignity, the tests they want some would injure me and even potentially kill me in my current state but they insist they are necessary for them to approve me along. I have tried to be good client and follow the rules and regulations but this I will not do so I am forced to look at other options . I realize that I am getting weaker and fighting is wearing me out . things need to change and I intend to do what I FEEL I NEED TO DO

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5 Responses to update 5-17-14

  1. lisa kier says:

    I totally support you, Matt.You have to do what’s right for you! I feel this issue should be covered in the Constitution(I dream BIG, right?) If we have the right to life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness, why can’t we have the right to die with dignity. Although getting something on the books in Washington is a lofty pursuit, you need to consider the toll it would take on you. Do what you can, while you can. You might find Oregon’s right to die law a helpful resource. Keep me posted if you can, and let me know what I can do to help. Love ya Matt

  2. Jenna says:

    I continue to think of you often and appreciate your openness about this part of your journey.

  3. Joe says:

    Hi Matthew. I wish you all the strength in the world in getting through this and to where you need to go. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Last summer we were on the same train. I was getting off in Chicago and you were getting off in Colorado. I remember passing you several times. Gosh that was such a beautiful train ride. After you made it to your destination a woman you were talking with that was still on the train shared a book of your poetry with me. I was really impressed by your writing and thought it was a touching. Though we didn’t formally meet, I am still honored to have shared the same train with you and to have gotten to know a little about your story. So I now introduce my self to you as Joe. Bless your heart and let’s all get through this crazy life one day at a time until we reach our destination. Peace be with you. And by the way, I hope your H.S. reunion went well.

    • Kristin Miller says:

      Hi Mathew,
      This is Kristin, the woman you met on the train from Salt Lake to Denver last summer. My husband and I talk about you often and you are in our hearts. I have shared your story with so many. You have touched this world in such a wonderful way and have left kindness and honesty in your wake. I watched your tribute video like I said I would. It was wonderful to see how deeply you are love and by so many.

      Like Joe, (Whom I think I talked to on the train) I hope your H.S. reunion was enjoyable and you got to reunite in some of those relationships of your youth.

      I am sad to hear of your struggles and wish I was able to have some affect on your world. No one has a right to judge your path for they have not walked where you have walked. You are a pillar of strength and goodness. I wish you love and peace and friendship.

      With Warmest love,


  4. tammy says:

    Government has no place being involved in your decision to die. Is there any research i can help you with? On the medicinal herb scale, there’s several that could help you, Matt. Belladonna and Night Shade to name a couple.
    And just so you know, you will be touching lives for a very long time. You have faced your life, head on, in the heat of battles we’ll never know. Your life, your pain will NOT have been in vain. Understand or not, you are amazing and you are DIGNITY to the Nth degree. Godspeed

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